Amanda Knox was exonerated. That doesn’t imply she’s free.

Within minutes of assembly Amanda Knox for the primary time, she planted her new child daughter into my arms. Yes, Knox has a child. A child that she has been preserving a secret for months, frightened that photographers would present up at her door, frightened it will turn into a headline about “Foxy Knoxy’s path to motherhood,” which after all now it’s going to.
I didn’t significantly need to maintain the infant, whom Knox knowledgeable me was having hassle pooping, however there we have been. “Ciao amore,” she cooed to her in Italian.
The child’s identify is Eureka Muse Knox-Robinson, and for the previous few months, Knox, 34, and her husband, novelist and poet Christopher Robinson, 39, have been documenting their being pregnant on their podcast, “Labyrinths” — however haven’t but revealed that they’re already dad and mom.
“I’m still nervous about the paparazzi bounty on her head,” stated Knox, attaching a breast pump as we spoke on a current afternoon on the house she shares along with her husband, daughter and three cats — Emil, Mr. Fats and Pan — on Vashon Island in Washington state. She was in orange plaid pants and a wrinkled button-down shirt, her hair in a excessive bun, trying like a brand new mother who had not slept shortly. “I will say I’m excited to not have to keep pretending not to be a mom. ’Cause it’s like, my brain is just there.”
If documenting probably the most susceptible particulars of a being pregnant on a podcast, then strategically rolling them out as a decoy technique for the media, solely to “reveal” your child in a newspaper, all in an effort to manage what’s being written about you, feels like barely convoluted logic, properly, Knox has by no means been one to do the factor that individuals count on her to do.
You bear in mind her story, proper? Knox was the Seattle school scholar cemented within the public psyche as “Foxy Knoxy” — jailed for 4 years, alongside along with her Italian boyfriend of per week, for the rape and homicide of her British roommate, Meredith Kercher, whereas learning overseas in Perugia, Italy, in 2007.
Knox and her boyfriend, Raffaele Sollecito, have been in the end acquitted of that crime, with Europe’s high human rights courtroom ruling that she had been disadvantaged of sufficient authorized help throughout an interrogation and that the DNA proof used to convict her was flawed. It ordered Italy to pay her $21,000 in damages.
By then, Rudy Guede, an acquaintance and recognized burglar who was convicted of the crime, had served eight years of a 16-year sentence.
But most individuals don’t do not forget that a part of the story.
What they probably do bear in mind are the extra salacious particulars of a Halloween homicide in a picturesque medieval city: the prosecution’s idea a couple of satanic intercourse sport gone awry. A gorgeous sufferer, Kercher, with an equally stunning American roommate, Knox, who behaved surprisingly within the days after the crime — doing “cartwheels” within the police station (they have been yoga poses); purchasing for “lingerie” along with her boyfriend (she didn’t have any clear underwear); and, later, exhibiting as much as courtroom carrying a T-shirt that learn, “All You Need Is Love,” a line from her favourite Beatles music.
She was vilified as a sex-crazed, diabolical “luciferina” in courtroom — and within the tabloids — and we’d quickly be taught that Knox stored a vibrator of their shared rest room and didn’t prefer to flush the bathroom.
It has been precisely 10 years now since Knox was launched from jail, chased via the winding roads of Perugia to a secure home in Rome earlier than boarding a flight house, its landing in Seattle coated reside by the information.
And but Knox, who’s now an advocate for the wrongfully convicted, continues to be making an attempt to sq. that caricature of herself — her murderous “doppelgänger,” as she calls her — with who she actually is, what she is allowed to be and the way in which her daughter will see her. How a lot time ought to she spend making an attempt to persuade individuals of her innocence? To what extent is it OK for her to revenue from the celebrity she by no means wished?
Since coming house in 2011, Knox has waffled between intervals of silence — making an attempt to be invisible, she stated — and aggressively making an attempt to clear her identify, first with a ebook about her expertise, and later as an advocate for others who have been incarcerated for crimes they didn’t commit, most with far fewer sources or identify recognition than she has.
For practically 4 years, Knox existed in a sort of authorized purgatory: acquitted on enchantment and making an attempt to reside her life, however realizing she might be retried. (In Italy, there isn’t any double jeopardy.) That purgatory resulted in 2015, when she was exonerated by Italy’s highest courtroom.
In the meantime, she had completed up her undergraduate diploma, in artistic writing, on the University of Washington — earlier than all this, she’d wished to turn into a translator — and for a time labored in a used-book retailer, making minimal wage and writing columns underneath a pseudonym for a neighborhood newspaper. “Getting a forward-facing, regular job was complicated by the fact that people would recognize me,” she stated.
She spoke publicly about her expertise in 2017 at a profit in Seattle alongside Macklemore and Monica Lewinsky, after which once more in 2019 at a convention in Italy — her first journey again — organized by the Italian Innocence Project, which didn’t exist when she was on trial.
She has since hosted a real crime podcast, appeared on Joe Rogan’s podcast final month and revealed an essay in The Atlantic in regards to the film “Stillwater,” which, she argued, is profiting on her identify and story.
Knox has lengthy had an advanced relationship with the media. And she has longed for her personal “Monica moment,” referring to the way in which Lewinsky has managed to rehabilitate her picture.
But whereas her authorized purgatory could also be over, a sort of cultural purgatory stays. How do you progress ahead when the tiniest particulars of your life can spur a tabloid frenzy? How do you get a “regular” job when your identify overshadows the whole lot you do? How do you grapple with utilizing that identify — to construct a life or an identification or a profession — when there’s a useless girl whose tragic story is dredged up each time you communicate?
“That’s the sort of trap I’m in, where I’m constantly having to be in conversation with something that I would rather not,” Knox stated. “I’m constantly told that I should just disappear.”
The making of a caricature
What occurred that evening in Perugia could also be debated eternally. But there are some primary info — not rumors, not wild theories from the prosecution, not tabloid spin.
The physique of Kercher, a 21-year-old scholar on the University of Leeds, was found in her bed room in the home she shared with three roommates, together with Knox, on Nov. 2, 2007.
Guede — whose bloody fingerprints have been discovered on the partitions of the room, and his DNA on her garments and inside her vagina — was tried individually from Knox and Sollecito and convicted earlier than their trial started. He testified that he sat with Kercher as she died, didn’t name police and was nonetheless unable to get the river of blood out of his thoughts. “He must have talked about that blood for 10 minutes,” stated Nina Burleigh, an investigative journalist who coated the trial from Perugia. Guede was launched final 12 months.
It would later be decided that there was no organic hint of Knox or Sollecito within the bed room, in line with courtroom paperwork. But after an all-night interrogation — by which Knox stated she was hit at the back of the top by police and didn’t have a lawyer or interpreter current — Knox signed a confession, written in Italian, inserting her on the home and accusing Patrick Lumumba, a Congolese bar proprietor who had been her boss, of the crime. Knox recanted inside hours, and the confession was later dominated inadmissible in courtroom, however Knox could be convicted of defaming Lumumba.
Any high-profile courtroom case is as a lot a media battle as a authorized one. In Italy, house of the paparazzi, juries are usually not sequestered, and it is not uncommon for police and legal professionals to leak data to the press — which might assist clarify the leak of Knox’s jailhouse journal, which included a listing of sexual companions, written after jail authorities advised her she had examined constructive for HIV. (She had not.)
“There were huge discrepancies between what was being reported in the media and what was in the actual police record,” stated Burleigh, who can be the writer of “The Fatal Gift of Beauty: The Trials of Amanda Knox.”
Life after jail
While in jail, Knox taught herself Italian by studying Harry Potter books and had imaginary conversations along with her youthful self, making an attempt to consolation her. During holidays, her grandmother would mild a candle in entrance of an empty chair in her honor.
But “home” wasn’t the identical house it had been when Knox returned — or, not less than, she wasn’t the identical particular person. Tom Wright, a household good friend, remembered a celebration hosted at Knox’s aunt’s home — with a “welcome home” cake baked by her grandmother — the place Knox sat alone. “I said to her, ‘Are you OK?’ And she said, ‘I just want the people not in this room to know I’m innocent.’”
Her household inspired her to take issues slowly as affords to inform her story rolled in. But she was anxious to make up for misplaced time. “I felt like I was already behind by four years,” she stated.
She quickly discovered an house with a good friend, after which moved right into a small home. She began courting a childhood good friend, then rebounded with a person she met in a bar who’d lied about being wrongfully convicted and have become threatening. “I felt like the most stupid person in the world, because of all the people, I shouldn’t have trusted this person,” Knox stated, starting to cry.
She was working on the bookstore, taking walks at evening to keep away from cameras and located solace in studying and enjoying guitar. She was nonetheless washing her underwear within the sink — a jail behavior she couldn’t appear to shake.
“You know, we were in survival mode for a while,” stated her mom, Edda Mellas, a trainer. “At that point in time, she really couldn’t talk about it at all. She just cried.”
Then, a couple of 12 months after she returned house, Knox’s acquittal was overturned, and he or she was retried and reconvicted in absentia. She frightened about extradition. Her household started trying into what it will take to cover her away in a bunker, telling her the much less she knew, the higher.
“I felt like I couldn’t even try to have a normal life because I was carrying this shroud over me,” Knox stated. “In part, I was defiant. I felt like there was a deep injustice, so I didn’t change my name, I didn’t change my appearance. But I also felt defeated, like there was nothing I could do about it.”
By the time she was definitively acquitted, in 2015, Knox had been convicted, imprisoned, acquitted and launched on an enchantment, retried and convicted once more, then in the end exonerated by Italy’s Supreme Court. She and her mom have been additionally tried and acquitted of slandering the Italian police. (In Italy, it’s a crime to insult or harm the status of public officers.) For the fees that she had defamed Lumumba, she was sentenced to a few years, which she had already served.
Seattle ‘weird’
Knox’s outlook modified after her exoneration. She met Robinson quickly after, when she interviewed him about his novel, “The War of the Encyclopeadists,” for The West Seattle Herald, the place she had solely simply begun utilizing her actual identify.
Robinson made the choice to not Google her, he stated, and let her divulge to him her story on her personal. He has since turn into her staunchest defender.
They don’t have a PR consultant, so Robinson is Knox’s first line of protection, becoming a member of her on interviews, producing and enhancing their podcast and screening her social media feeds for hate and dying threats, whereas juggling his personal writing profession. And whereas the insults lodged at his spouse are many, it’s the accusation that there’s one thing off about her that bothers him probably the most.
Every metropolis has its model of “weird,” however Seattle — of the pre-Jeff Bezos period, anyway — was house to a selected taste of counterculture. For those that know the place, it was no large shock that Knox, who had arrived in Perugia with all of her tenting gear (tent, sleeping bag, range) and a teakettle in her suitcase was out of context in Italy.
But this grates at Robinson, who additionally grew up there. “There are a lot of people who will say, with good intentions, like, ‘I’m really sorry that happened to you. I’m a weird, quirky person, too.’ Or, ‘You should be allowed to be quirky. It doesn’t mean you’re a killer.’ And it’s like, OK, but — did you even think for a minute that your perception of her behavior was mediated through a thousand other things?”
‘An alternate life’
Knox and Robinson reside in a woodsy enclave a brief ferry experience from West Seattle, the place Knox grew up, however with sufficient distance from the mainland that they really feel comfy placing their identify on the mailbox. “We have a little bubble, but we’re not completely off the grid,” Knox stated. They go foraging for mushrooms within the woods behind their home. The mat on their entrance porch reads, “Come Back With a Warrant,” a present from a public defenders’ convention the place she spoke.
For a lot of the pandemic, and positively since their daughter was born, they’ve hardly left this compound. They take turns going to city for groceries and take the occasional stroll to their favourite lookout spot, the place goats roam in a subject and there’s a view of Puget Sound. Last month, a few German photographers discovered their solution to Knox’s grandparents’ home on the island, however for probably the most half they really feel safe right here.
On a current weekday, whereas Robinson labored on a script for “Labyrinths” — their child reveal episode — Knox recorded an interview with Maya Shankar, a cognitive neuroscientist who research bias. Eureka, in a bassinet on the ground, stared at shapes in a ebook whereas Robinson rocked her together with his foot. Above him was a shelf stuffed with books in regards to the Kercher case, together with Knox’s personal.
The advance for her 2013 memoir, “Waiting to Be Heard,” was reportedly $3.8 million, which suggests individuals assume she acquired wealthy. But there’s solely up to now even that amount of cash will go after eight years of authorized payments and PR; three mortgages (her mom, father and grandmother took out second mortgages on their houses); a mortgage for her youthful sister, Deanna, who had dropped out of school in the course of the ordeal; and agent charges and taxes. Her father, Curt Knox, an accountant, stated Amanda ended up with about $200,000.
It was sufficient to assist her begin over. But with a podcast she and Robinson self-produce, a child and 160 Patreon subscribers as their most important supply of earnings for the time being, they are going to want different work.
And so they’re hustling: pitching a movie adaptation of her memoir, a TV mission about exonerees, a brand new ebook for Knox. They plan to create a sequence of NFTs out of well-known tabloid covers with Knox’s face on them, and Robinson is engaged on a sci-fi novel and a nonfiction ebook about evolution, the longer term and psychedelics.
Another concept, for a documentary mission, would discover Knox’s relationship along with her principal Italian prosecutor, Giuliano Mignini, a lifelong Perugian who in the course of the trial portrayed Knox as a intercourse fiend seeking to actual revenge on her roommate and who argued that she needed to have been concerned within the killing as a result of solely a lady would cowl a physique with a bedsheet.
During her journey again to Italy, in 2019, she delivered a letter to him in Italian, asking if he may be keen to start a dialogue. It took him just a few months to reply, however they’ve been corresponding since then. She hopes to satisfy him in particular person someday and maybe movie the encounter.
Mignini, who has since retired and is publishing a ebook on the case subsequent 12 months, is open to the concept. Reached in Perugia, he stated he has gotten to know Knox’s character partly via the chaplain at her former jail, a person named Don Saulo, with whom she turned shut, who was additionally the priest at Mignini’s childhood parish.

“I am aware that finding herself far from home, at that age, she must certainly have suffered a lot,” Mignini stated. While that perspective doesn’t change his view on the case, he stated, he acknowledged that she was portrayed “as a sort of Circe,” he stated, referring to the vilified witch from basic mythology, notorious for turning males into pigs.
It’s the paradox of being “Amanda Knox,” even so a few years later: torn between desirous to reside an nameless existence — she fantasizes about transferring to a distant village in Germany and changing into a seamstress — and wanting to manage the narrative about her; cautious of the media that disparaged her however needing it to advertise her skilled endeavors; criticized for being so public about her life however unable to exist privately with out the bags that comes along with her identify.
“What I keep telling Chris is that I want to get to a place where I don’t have to keep living the worst experience of my life so that we can pay the mortgage,” Knox stated. “I keep telling myself if all else fails, I can make cuckoo clocks for a living.”